Preparation

Have you ever hosted a party with no preparation?  Or maybe you've taken a test without studying?  Tried a new recipe without reading it all the way through first?

I've done all these things, with disastrous results. As a matter of fact, I've done this to B two times this school year alone.  Two weeks we've not studied his spelling words before a spelling test. This is the first year he's had spelling tests so I wasn't in the groove yet.  One week it was so bad his sweet teacher didn't give him any grade at all.  #mommafail

I have been in a season of waiting and preparation for a while now.  God has given me a dream and a calling and I want to get this party started.  But he is holding me in place.  I know what I want to do but my circumstances don't allow it.  I'll be honest, it's frustrating.  It's disheartening at times.

It's so hard not to question God in these seasons of preparation.  I question my calling, "Are you sure this is what I'm supposed to do, LORD? If it is, why can't I do it yet?  Why isn't everything falling into place."

My brain knows I need to prepare for success but my heart wants to charge forward.

Two verses help me wait patiently during this season of preparation.

"Commit your work to the Lord, and your plans will be established. The Lord has made everything for its purpose" Proverbs 16:3-4

"For which of you, desiring to build a tower, does not first sit down and count the cost, whether he has enough to complete it?" Luke 14:28

So, today I will commit my work to the LORD.  I will do what he needs me to do to prepare for the next adventure He has waiting for me.  I will try to listen for his promptings so that I am not charging forward without Him.  Some days it's so hard to wait, boring to prepare, I want to get going.  But I know that His plan is always better than mine.  

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