Tuesday, October 3, 2017


I'm not sure anyone has ever used the word sweet to describe me.  I don't often keep track of what people say about me.

Let me rephrase that...I keep track of what people in my orbit (those I love & who love me back) say about me.  I try not to make a habit of keeping track of what those outside my orbit say.  If I'm honest, I've wasted plenty of minutes on what those outer orbit people say.  But I'm trying to stop.


I know A LOT of sweet people.  They make my heart happy.  Lately, I don't count myself among them.  Being sweet includes being selfless.  Being selfless means thinking of yourself less - duh.  And right now, I'm having trouble getting out of my own head.  There are so many things to worry about right now that I feel like that thoughts are crowding out all my sweetness.

So, what to do about it?

I retreat.  I don't want to be mean to people so I pull away.  It's not someone else's fault that I'm not feeling up to interacting with them.  But I don't want to retreat for too long because it will lead to a deep depression.  I just know this about myself.

Then I pull myself out of my retreat and start doing things for others.  I love to serve people.  It fills my brain with other things to think about.

I try to fill my brain with praise music during these times.  One of my favorite things to teach in computer skills was garbage in, garbage out.  The computer can only do what you tell it to do.  Same with your brain.  It can only think about what's in it.  When you dwell on the negative, your brain thinks more negatives.  When I listen to praise music, I can replace some of those worrisome thoughts with God's word.

I love to listen to Shane & Shane's Psalm albums.  In most of the songs they just sings the words of the LORD. It's refreshing.  And I love to have my mind filled with God's word.

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