Thursday, September 14, 2017

Near or Far

When do you feel closest to Jesus?  In times of trials or in the good times?

If I'm being honest, I'd say in times of trials

In the good times, I still do my Bible study and quiet time.  But, I don't cling to Him as I do in times of trials.  When things are going wrong, I depend on Jesus.  I look to him for every decision.  I beg him to show me the way, what to do next.  I'm in constant contact.

I long to be this way during the good times as well.  But it's more of a struggle.  I find my mind wandering more during my prayer time.  It's harder to stay still and listen.  I turn to friends for reassurance instead of to Him.

I don't understand it.  It's frankly frustrating.  I don't want to have to be in constant crisis mode to feel near to God.

I remember the verse in James

I know God hasn't gone anywhere.  He's still there longing for a relationship with me.  I'm the one who has moved.

So, I do what I can.  I pray for focus.  I pray for closeness.  I keep reading my Bible.  I keep studying.  I refocus when my mind wanders.  I and a pray...

And because I love y'all, here's my favs - Shane & Shane - singing Psalm 51

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